Oh gosh and golly

I'm about to lose my mind. The kids are not going to bed. It's been at least an hour and a half and I'm going insane. Tooo much sugar, too much energy, and not enough play time.

Normally we go to the park to feed the ducks on Saturdays. But alas the weather was not with us today. So the boys had to stay indoors all day.

Help me.

*edit* I'm not voting for Governor this year. Because the childish way they are treating each other. I sware it's like hearing my kids arguing. He said this... He did this... He pushed me... Mommy... Dino and Christine... Keep em both.

Ghost hunters...

I love this show... I have no idea why... But I LOVE it... And now there is like... oh 7 or so hours of it on. And that's whats been on my tv for a while now. yey. Ghosty goodness.

Happy Haunting everyone.

Trick or Treet?/I vant to suck your blood...

Muwahahaha. The kiddo's are going to be rodeo clowns. They are going to be soooo cute.

I've given enough plasma for two whole people.

I'm starting to hate the process. The 3 inch steel needle... In my right arm. Yes it has to be my right arm because apparently I have no other veins. Then pump the hand for 10 min. Then relax. Then pump... You get the idea. The only reason that I do this twice a week is the money.

Yeah I know plasma helps people. It can and often does save lives. And on some level I feel guilty for doing this solely for the money. But then again... It's the only income we have at the moment.

But anyhow... yeah.

Well hello there.

I have way too many blogs out there. I know this. I've accepted this. It's all good. I'm just additcted to myspace that's all. Although I do like a blog that is more writting baised. I've gotten away from writting and I need to get back to that. I would like to eventualy get published. I like writting fiction. Although I'm not too sure if it's any good or not. But that's ok.

We are having some hard times right now. Relying on food banks, we are relying on others and me giving plasma every week to get 65 bucks. Yeah a whole 250 a month. Yey. God I'm loseing my mind. What's left of it anyhow.

I just feel really lonely right now. I don't have a job... My kids don't have what they diserve... I just don't know anymore. I know that God is here for me... I know of his love... I just feel like I've let him down you know? I don't feel worthy of any of the blessings He's given me. A wonderful husband, hyper active children that bring me such joy, a home that we don't need to worry about rent, a very understanding landlord. I just don't know. I just feel so lost right now. It's been a while since we've gone to church. And that's because we ride the bus. It's a whole hour to get anywhere that's a good place to worship.

Anyhow. That's me. Yey. ou vey.